Day 5In your own space, talk about your fannish origin story. How did you come to fandom, why did you choose your fannish name, do you have more than one secret identity? Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.
AHAHAHA so this is a bit of story XD
Ok so back in sixth grade I am a fairly tall kid with zero social skills and I have recently discovered The Best Thing In The World: the lord of the rings. Everyone has been telling me for years that I would love the books, but because everyone was telling me that, I ignored them (this is something of a theme in my life). However, movie one comes out, I completely fall in love, and devour the books like there's no tomorrow. My best (and only) friend is an Italian girl with limited English skills whom I adore (and still do; she was also the object of my first crush and subsequent lesbian panic). She is also deeply in love with lord of the rings. We spend a great deal of time at each other's houses.
Now, at this point my parents are only a few steps removed from helicoptering. As such, I have access to the family computer, but not my own account. Being an as-yet innocent dove, I have no idea what the internet is for (:porn). My friend, on the other hand, has her own computer. She's also way more savvy on it than anyone else in our class.
At some point in the spring of sixth grade (2002) we're over at her house and she wants to show me something on her computer. I happily pull up a chair. She pulls up the internet and opens a page to libraryofmoria.com, then shows me a page of poorly formatted courier new, because html wasn't a thing that happened yet.
Ok, so let me tell you something about this story. Fourteen years later, I would balk at this story - it's not a pairing I'm interested in, and it's got a number of my squicks. I haven't read this story in four years, and before that I hadn't read it in ten (I looked it up to see if it was still on the 'net - it is, though not on LoM). But the details are branded into my brain and at this point I'm convinced that nothing will ever remove them. It was Legolas/Aragorn, and began with the premise that Aragorn was pissed at Legolas for revealing his identity at the Council of Elrond. It quickly descended into spanking and crying, and at some point Arwen came out from behind a pillar (she'd been watching this whole time) and joined in. It's very, very graphic. Because this was the early 2000s, "Elvish" phrases were liberally sprinkled throughout, with a helpful glossary at the end.
Now, remember that I'm reading this over my best friend's shoulder. I have a massive crush on her, though I haven't quite worked out that that's what this is. Remember that I'm maybe 12.
I lapped it up like nobody's business.
Within a month I'm a regular visitor to LoM and I've learned how to wipe the memory from IE on the family computer. I have ships, though I don't know what these are. I know the jargon. I'm having feels. I know way more about gay male sex than any other kind.
A year later I've branched into another 10 or so fandom (I've always been very multifannish) and have an ff.net account. Three years later I'm writing fic, though I don't post it. A year after that I'm posting to ff.net. Three years after that I discover podfic. The year after that I start recording podfic. And three years after that I'm here :D
(I think I counted those years right? *peers at them*)
This all goes some way towards explaining why all my usernames have been Lord of the Rings related - it was my first fandom, and while I wouldn't say I'm still in the fandom, the world that I built for myself there is very near and dear to me. My current username, kalakirya
is the Old Quenya spelling of "Calacirya", which is the name of a pass in the Pelori Mountains in Valinor. It means "cleft of light" (there's a bunch of mythology there), which is where my tumblr username lightinthemountains
comes from (someone is sitting on kalakirya.tumblr.com). The fannish identity herein and the platforms listed are the only ones I maintain (there's also a kalakirya at deviantart, but that's also not me). (Incidentally, it's pronounced "kal - uh - KIR - ee - uh". If I'd known people would have so much trouble with it, I might have stuck with halwen, but it's too late now!)