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Title: each according to their nature
Author: [archiveofourown.org profile] sixthlight
Reader: [personal profile] kalakirya
Fandom: Rivers of London
Pairings: none
Rating: gen
Summary: “What kind?” Nightingale asked, like that was any sort of reasonable question when wings.
content notes: none
Length: 00:31:39
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Jul. 10th, 2016 10:23 pm
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Title: Velvet
Author: [archiveofourown.org profile] tofsla
Reader: [personal profile] kalakirya
Fandom: Sailor moon
Pairings: Michiru/Haruka
Rating: mature
Summary: Learning to be both Michiru and Sailor Neptune is a process. Backstory.
content notes: Haruka gets misgendered
Length: 1:25:20
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Title: Come Away to the Water
Author: [personal profile] leobrat | [archiveofourown.org profile] leobrat
Reader: [personal profile] kalakirya
Fandom: Spartacus
Pairings: Crixus/Naevia, Agron/Nasir, Melitta/Oenomaus, Barca/Pietros
Rating: Mature
Summary: Come away, little lass, come away to the water. Away from the light you always knew. We are calling to you... Naevia was born, and then lived her whole life.
Content Notes: graphic depictions of violence, major character death, rape/non-con
Length: 03:26:11
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Today I was thinking about how and why I get attached to certain characters so intensely. For the most part I fall into fandoms easily, and fall out of them nearly as easily. I don’t leave fandoms much – Sherlock and Teen Wolf are the exceptions to the rule – but there was a hot minute where I read a lot of Dresden Files, and another for Dorian/the Iron Bull, and original Man from UNCLE, and Man from UNCLE (2015), and Athelstan/Lagertha/Ragnar, and Bilbo/Thorin, and NCIS, and Eagle of the Ninth, and Sentinel, and Labyrinth, and Inception, and Star Wars of all flavors. I occasionally still dip into those fandoms, and don’t consider myself to have left them, but I certainly don’t go back to them day after day after day for years. Hockey rpf – Sid/Geno, if I’m honest – I have gone back to daily for nearly two years. And that’s kinda weird. I haven’t even done that for Gabriel from Supernatural, who is otherwise my longest-lived fannish touchstone. I was thinking about it, and realized that though Sid/Geno as a pairing sticks with me for a few reasons, it was mostly that I got really, really attached to Sidney Crosby, both as a fannish rpf character, and as a character in hockey media. And that’s kinda weird for me, to be honest.
I care about Sid for a very specific reason, because he, as a character, came into my life at a very specific time. Just when I was getting into hockey rpf and was looking around for a new shiny, a number of things came together and I realized that I may be on the spectrum. Family stories, of infant!me screaming if I was picked up by anyone other than my parents, of delayed developmental stages, of child!me adapting very poorly to change, memories of being told off for toe-walking, of endless conversations where I knew I was missing some conclusion that came easily to people around me, of practicing maintaining eye contact, of sensory issues ad naeuseum, added up to a conclusion that I still haven't had checked out by a medical doctor*. In some ways, I don't want to know. At this point I’ve practiced and worked out coping mechanisms and work-arounds. It’s who I am. But the fact that society doesn’t like that very much continues to be hard to deal with. I stick out, in a lot of ways, and some days that’s really hard. I’ve spent a lot of time and energy trying to not stick out, not be so weird, not be so awkward, not be so strange. 


But I look at Sidney Crosby, notoriously superstitious and awkward, and I see someone with problems like mine. Someone who gets very nervous in large empty rooms – Sid's stall is often on the end, next to a wall (if there is one - the Pens' circular locker room makes me profoundly uneasy). Someone who isn’t very comfortable touching new people – in photos with fans, he usually has his hands in his pockets. Someone who doesn’t like new clothes – Sid’s famous for wearing the same gear until it literally falls off of him; I hate clothes shopping for many reasons, but one is that new clothing is upsetting to wear because it aggravates my sensory issues. His media appearances are characterized as being amazingly practiced and bland, and I hear that and think about how I practice and plan responses in conversations because I can’t trust that my tongue won’t trip me up. I hate public speaking but have done enough of it that I can do it well when necessary. When I knew my thesis defense was coming up, I practiced my talk two or three times a day for two weeks. For the first week I was so upset that those two or three hours of talking would leave me shaking and teary for hours and completely blow out my voice for the entire day, but after two weeks I had it down. I was told that I passed with flying colors. I like spending time with kids for several reasons, but they don’t mind when I talk an extra minute to parse something, or get enthusiastic about something, or miss a social cue. Before a recent interview he did with rookie goalie Matt Murray, Sid switched their name placards so that he was sitting on the left. A lot of people put this down to superstition, and maybe that’s all of it. But I have places I prefer to sit, and I get nervous and twitchy if I get moved around. I’m getting better at dealing with it, as I get older and have better coping mechanisms. But if I were about to go into a media conference? If I’m excited and keyed up and that energy could be good and push me to great things but could also push me off the precarious edge of good humor and into upset and depression? If I’m sitting next to a rookie who won’t know how to support me the way a veteran might but also won’t give me shit if I switch our seats? If I’m known for being a bit weird and this won’t really add to it? You’re damn right I’d switch seats and give myself a bit more of an even footing. My routines are important and change is very hard and very upsetting.


There could be any number of reasons for why Sid is the way he is and does the things he does, and they may be nothing like mine. A lot of people have quirks and ways that they like and don’t like doing things. That’s not my point though. A lot of people don’t like Sid because he’s “girly” or “a whiner” or “weird” or too good at what he does. I see someone who gets shit because of other people’s misogyny. Who sticks up for his teammates and doesn’t cooperate as much with the machismo and tough-guy-attitude of organized sports. Who has ticks and issues like mine and prioritizes his comfort and happiness over other people’s reactions. Who is one of the best players of his generation anyway.


I still feel weird about rpf. I’m uncomfortable with the way the media intrudes on players’ private lives, with the way fandom fetishes certain things and ignores others. I want these people to have lives out of the spotlight. And fandom does have non-rpf characters who are weird in similar ways: Benton Fraser and Rodney McKay come to mind right off the bat, but fandom is filled with them; we do like our misfits. But ultimately, they are fictional, all their ticks and preferences and hang-ups are the product of someone's imagination, and while that's better than nothing, it does put the ticks and preferences and hang-ups on a similar level to, say, wings, or lycanthropy. So the parallel to my experiences falls apart, a bit. Not entirely, but a bit.

I still feel weird about rpf, but there is a person - Sidney Crosby - who actually does do those things. Things like I do things. He has a media persona that fandom has crafted into an rpf character, but he does actually do those things. So while my engagement with hockey is nearly entirely fannish, my interest in Sid isn't, really. Rather, I’m appreciative of the public persona Sid has adopted, which is awkward, and a bit bland, and full of weird personal quirks like switching seats with another player before a press conference for no apparent reason. But I’m thankful for the things Sid does, publicly and without apology, because his example has helped me be more comfortable with myself and better advocate for myself. Sid’s had to deal with a lot of shit in his life. But he’s doing very well at the thing that he wants to be doing with his life. And he gives himself space for the things that make his life easier, even if society gives him shit for it.


I don’t know what I want to do with my life, and I’m not doing all that well at what I am doing. But I’m trying to be better at giving myself space for the things that will make my life easier, even if society gives me shit for it. If Sid can do it, I can do it. 

(Which is mostly a relatively long-winded way of saying that I'm not used to having real-life role models, and certainly not about this. But I'd already typed it all up before the phrase "role model" occurred to me, and I didn't want to waste it.)


*I'm aware that there's a lot more too it than that. There's a lot more from my end too, I'm just not comfortable giving out details of my medical and person history on the internet. Nor I am interested in talking about it. Please take it as given and move on.
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This post came out of a number of things, most notably the discussion around race in fandom this year. There's been a lot of meta on it, some of which I agree with, and some of which makes flames appear on the sides of my face. I don't want to get into the discussion: I like keeping my fannish activities non-rage-inducing. 

That said, a lot of what people were saying resonated. The ships and characters that fandom fixates on do tend to be very white. They also tend to be very male, and very m/m slash oriented. Which is not a thing I'm happy with.

In January I did an analysis of the shipping breakdowns of the podfic I'd produced the previous year, and the results were very disappointing: while I'd thought that I was doing a decent job of podficcing women and non-m/m stories, that wasn't borne out in the stats. I resolved to podfic more non-cis-male-centric stories, and so far I think I'm doing a decent job (that said, I haven't run the numbers yet, and I'd thought I was doing alright before!).

In January I didn't do a racial breakdown, though. Partly for time, partly because it's more complicated (more categories!), and partly because I had a pretty good idea I wouldn't be happy with the results. But that's a really, really terrible reason. So I did it anyway.

In order to get my numbers, I looked at the same set of podfics that I used for 2015's shipping and gender breakdown: all the completed podfics I posted in that year that I made solo. ("Completed" means that I left out "and never been kissed", which is a 160K white/white m/m slash story that I'm nearly done with which is going to kill my stats for this year.) I only counted the main characters (here defined as "when I think of the podfic who do I remember it being about") and used the canonical (or, lacking that, fannish) racial background of the characters (I had always thought that Nita and Dairine Callahan were Hispanic but apparently that is not canonically correct, so here they're counted as white). That produced this bar chart:

aaaaaaaand the main take away is damn that's very white. That is not what I wanted to be doing. That is just over 95% of my output. 

Another note on this chart: I've used American classifications of race and racial backgrounds. I'm American, and this is about my podfic, and my relationship to my podfic. If I were doing this a bit more scientifically, I would do it differently. But I'm not, and can only speak to my own perspective of my work. Also, I've been lead to understand that "latin@" is [one of the] preferred terminologies/spellings for the background of the characters in question - Mia Toretto and Letty Ortiz from the Fast and the Furious series - but I'm continuing to refine my understanding of who prefers what terms. 

For the purposes of curiosity, I broke it down by gender identity again. 

Soooooo when I do make podfic about non-white characters, it's almost invariably women. Which, while I'm not upset to have podficced more women than men, I don't like that all those columns are empty.

I'm not getting involved in the fannish discussions on race and society and social justice. I have my own, very strong, feelings on that, but I don't want to talk about them. I do want to spend more of my time creating fanworks that prioritize non-cis-male characters of color. 

I do want to add the tiny, tiny caveat that podfic, as a medium, is more limited than fanfic or fanart or many other fannish works. While we can create original fannish works, and I have, for the most part, we transform fanfiction, and therefore we are limited to the fanfiction that others choose to make. (Not!pods - "original fannish work" - weren't included in either of these breakdowns. I'm sorry to say that they mostly would have made my numbers worse anyway.) That's an explanation, but it is most certainly not an excuse. This year I've been more dedicatedly looking for stories to podfic that center non-white-cis-male characters, and while I've been a bit depressed by the results, I've also found some wonderful, lovely stories in fandoms I don't spend a lot of time in, about characters that I love but hadn't focused on as much. I'm not "eating my vegetables," I'm finding that an all-meat-and-potato diet was boring and not nutritious, while beets and brussel sprouts and beans and yams are fun and interesting and absolutely delicious. 
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Title: Fresh Poison Each Week
Author: [archiveofourown.org profile] lady_ragnell
Reader: [personal profile] kalakirya
Fandom: Merlin
Pairings: Nimueh/Ygraine
Rating: Teen and up
Summary: The Old Religion does not accept Ygraine Pendragon's death.
Content Notes: this is a Groundhog Day AU of a very bad day. It comes with repeated character death through childbirth, suicide, and murder, as well as brief mentions of the murder of children
Length: 9 minutes 56 seconds
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Title: Five Wives Anthology
Author: [archiveofourown.org profile] ssstrychnine
Reader: [personal profile] kalakirya
Fandom: Mad Max: Fury Road
Pairings: the Angharad and Capable sections are Angharad/Capable
Rating: teen and up
Summary: backstories of the five wives
content notes: self-harm, implied rape/non-con
Length: 44:28
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Angharad (10:42, 9.82MB) (right-click to stream, left-click to download)

Capable (10:08, 9.31MB) (right-click to stream, left-click to download)

Toast (9:25, 8:65MB) (right-click to stream, left-click to download)

The Dag (7:45, 7.13MB) (right-click to stream, left-click to download)

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Dear WAGFAPE podficcer!


ok, fun stuff first:
any fandom I've ever participated in is fair game (full list on ao3), with the exception of rpf fandoms, with which I have a loving but complicated relationship.

That's a mildly daunting list, so to narrow it down/pick out characters of whom I'm particularly fond and who canonically fit this challenge (and a few whom I adore but haven't recorded for whatever reason) (list is in no particular order):

also ALL THE LADIES in avatar: the last airbender and the legend of korra
ALL THE LADIES in Sailor Moon (all incarnations thereof)
all the ladies in all parts of the MCU, with the exceptions of Daredevil and Jessica Jones
Root and Sameen Shaw (Person of Interest)
Abbie and Jenny (Sleepy Hollow)
Cordelia, Alys, Ekaterin, Kareen, Bel, Dono (Vorkosigan 'verse)
Mako (Pacific Rim)
Kira, Jadzia, Ezri, Ziyal, Cassidy Yates (star trek ds9)
Mia, Letty, Elena (Fast and the Furious)
Xena, Gabrielle (Xena)
Cheri Littlebottom, Maladict(a), Polly, Lady Sybil, Susan, Angua (Discworld)
Rose, Martha, Donna, Ace, Sarah Jane, Zoe (Doctor Who, both old and New)
June, El, Diana, Sara (White Collar)
Naevia, Mira, Saxa, Sibyl, Laeta (Spartacus)

that having been said, I'm am 110% down with AU versions of any and all characters, most particularly of the genderqueered variety (I'm sorry to say that the list above contains very few canonically genderqueer characters - it's a thing I'm working on, but in the mean time, feel free to AU and headcanon it up).

unfun stuff (triggers and squicks):
no-escape situations (either literal - "I can't find a door" - or metaphorical - suicidal ideation, despair, "no one will believe you")
desperate chase situations (a car chase in Fast and the Furious is fine - running for one's life is not)
more-than-canonical gore (applies per canon, e.g.: massive amounts of gore are ok in spartacus but not in leverage)
dub-con, non-con
character death
misunderstandings/miscommunication as a plot device
bad therapists (e.g. Hannibal)

more fun stuff:
I'm a hardcore multishipper, love gen, and don't really have any NOTPs, so you're pretty safe no matter what direction you go in.
I love tropes, but if you're looking for a little guidance, some that I particularly love are: epistolary, funky formats (post-it notes, journal entries, computer code, dialogue-only, etc), AUs both mundane (coffee shop, college, etc) and otherwise (different era, magic, spaceships, etc), crossovers and fusions, a-day-in-the-life.

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Title: Post Facto
Author: [personal profile] philomytha | [archiveofourown.org profile] philomytha
Reader: [personal profile] kalakirya
Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga
Pairings: none
Rating: teen and up
Summary: Aral breaks an oath he made to Simon.
content notes: gen consent issues
Length: 1 hours 00 minutes 38 seconds
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Day 13

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you did not create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

[fanvid] Glad You Came by lillykid - fast and the furious series - several pairings - this vid is a bit tricky, because while it's partly a happy and excited vid about the franchise and the characters and their relationships, it's also something of a eulogy/tribue for Paul Walker (the blond dude - he died while the seventh movie was still being filmed). And while that's not bad, it also hurts, in a way that is more close to home than most fanworks, and more than I generally like my fanworks to get. But at the same time, it's such a loving tribute and such a wonderfully happy vid that I keep coming back.

[podfic] I came to win by exmanhater (from a fic by philyra) - MCU Hockey!AU - gen - this is just so great you guys. so very great. exmanhater is, of course, glorious - her reading is clear and hits all the best emotional notes and her pepper you guys HER PEPPER! so great. so great. the story is great and the plot is infuriating and will make you want to watch all the women's hockey. so great. so great.

[podfic] brothers in arms by reenajenkins (from a fic by copperbadge) - MCU - gen - look guys. it's reenajenkins and robots. and bucky and robots. and robots and robots. I am weak to all these things. also, all these things are great. so great.

[fanfic] Come Away to the Water by leobrat - spartacus - naevia-centric - ok so I'm in the midst of podficcing this so it's eaten my brain a bit but it's just - at its best, or at least what I remember of its best, spartacus had a lot of weight to it. not that it tackled weighty subjects, though it did, but, between the dialogue and the cinematography, it sometimes felt like it edged towards the mildly fantastical (how much blood fit in that body?!). And that made sense in context, but can be a hard act to follow, fandom-wise. But this fic - this fic feels like every word has weight, and every word has an intention, and every word was placed there, very carefully. That makes recording it really, really hard, but reading it is really, really satisfying.

[fanfic] mixtape series by verity - MCU - several pairings - this is just a really, really fun read. It's fun, not over the top, and feels like saying hi to your best friend after a long day.

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Day 12

What makes you fannish? And by that we mean, what is it about a tv show/movie/book/band/podcast/etc that takes you from, "Yeah, I like that," to "I need MOAR!!!" Is it a character? A plotline? The pretty? Subtext that’s just screaming to be acknowledged?

In your own space, tell us what it is that gets you to cross that line into fandom. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I originally had a much longer post, but I've lost patience with myself, so here we go. If a canon doesn't show things - the world is fully formed, and makes sense, but there are bits of unexplained detail? Interesting secondary characters? Glimpses of the wider world beyond the story? those are my catnip. For the most part I get into fandom because the canonical story doesn't explore the world that it created. Or doesn't explore the bits that I want to know more about. Or I fall into a fandom first, without any contact with the canon (a short, non-exhaustive list of such fandom-first (or fandom-only) fandoms for the curious: the Dresden Files, Hockey RPF, Dragon Age: Inquisition, Teen Wolf, Fast and the Furious, Mad Max: Fury Road). I fall in love with the characters and the world, always, and everything else follows from there.
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Day 11

In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

1. I like my contributions to fandom. I'm happy with the quality of my podfic, I'm happy with the other things I do, and I'm happy with the direction I'm going in (which is currently MOAR FEMSLASH)

2. I'm happy with the amount of selfcare I give myself. It's taken quite a few years to get to this point, and a lot of training myself and my brain and my body, but I'm happy with the balance we've worked out, which seems to be right for me right now.

3. I like that I've found good people to spend time with, whose ways of interacting with the things they like mesh with the ways I interact with the things I like. I'm not tagging anyone, because then I'd never stop, but if you're wondering if I'm thinking of you, then yes, I am <3 (no really, I am - I wouldn't have kept interacting with you otherwise! promise <3)
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Day 09

In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I blabbered here about how little femslash I podfic, and how that's disappointing. So now I'm making a goal for 2016 to improve my femslash-to-dudeslash ratio. Which has been getting better! My femslash-as-a-percentage-of-my-dudeslash more than doubled between 2014 and 2015! Which is to say that it went from 0.47% to 1.01%. I've clearly been kicking myself over this, because I want to be podficcing more femslash, on a theoretical level.

There were several hundred words here that can pretty much be summed up as "intense navel gazing". So I'll spare my future self and anyone reading this that effort, and just say that my goal for 2016 is to AT THE VERY LEAST WOW THIS IS SUCH A LOW BAR JESS YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO THIS EASILY DON'T FUCK IT UP make the ratio of my femslash-to-dudeslash ratio 2%.

(I'm actually aiming for 10%, but I'm also not really holding myself to that. I try to aim high, but have a lower goal in case I do feel like shooting my foot off [see icon!])
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I did a quick-and-dirty analysis of my 2015 podfic output, and realized that while I'd done one in 2013, 2014 was lacking. And I was curious. So here it is! My total was 33 podfics over 25 fandom which came to 38 hours 44 minutes and 11 seconds of podfic. Or so. I was really tired when I pulled these numbers together, and have since noticed that the by-fandom and by-category numbers don't match. But I'm not going to worry about that. The other possibility is that I made 31 podfics totalling 38:12:48. Close enough.

Again, these are just the podfics that I did alone. There were a whole bunch of co-pods and not!podfics, but that gets confusing, so they don't appear here).

Here's the podfic-by-fandom breakdown for 2014

The time is measured in 72 minute units, because that was what it did automatically and this is supposed to be a quick-and-dirty thing and figuring out how to change that doesn't fit with quick-and-dirty. The fact that the colors are reversed from the 2015 version is unintentional, but I decided it was cute. Otherwise it's the same set-up: length of all podfics in that fandom put end-to-end is in the orange columns, measured on the left (the gridlines line up with this axis), and the number of podfics made in the fandom is the blue dots, measured on the right. A few things pop out: I did a whole bunch of one-off podfics, one super-long hobbit podfic (Sons of Durin), a bunch of merlin podfics (which is interesting, because I don't remember having done that many!), and I guess those Fast and Furious podfics really added up!

Here's that information as a table

fandom 19th century civic allegory AtlA DCU DrWho ds9 F&F ff7 GotG hobbit hockey HP labyrinth leverage MCU merlin pacific rim PoI she ra sleepy hollow spartacus spn W13 west wing xena xmen
count 1 2 1 2 2 7 1 4 1 1 1 3 7 5 8 1 1 1 1 1 7 1 2 1 1
time 0:04:18 0:03:36 0:07:01 0:05:28 0:04:04 1:34:35 2:00:47 1:32:04 10:52:43 0:19:02 0:03:10 0:24:38 0:55:42 6:56:35 3:38:14 0:22:56 0:06:09 0:06:39 0:29:34 0:30:23 7:29:32 0:12:42 0:30:44 0:08:09 0:05:26

Now here's the category breakdown

Wow that's... not a lot of femslash. And quite a lot of gen! More gen than dudeslash, as a matter of fact, though only by 15 minutes and 11 seconds. The poly, incidentally, is a combination of Guardians of the Galaxy (MFMMG, where G is for Groot), Final Fantasy VII (MFMM), leverage (MMF) and MCU (ninesome! MFMFMMFMM). In 2015 I apparently didn't podfic anything with more-than-two romantic parings. Otoh, the first one I did in 2016 was Rey/Finn/Poe (which was a co-pod, so it won't appear in the 2016 analysis, but it's kinda cool anyway).

Here's the same information in a table

gen ff mf mm poly
17 6 5 21 12
13:59:54 0:36:36 1:32:59 13:44:43 8:18:36

One of the things that really pops out at me, in both the 2015 and 2014 analyses, is that I really don't do that much femslash. Which is kinda upsetting, because that's one of the things that I really try to make an effort to do. In 2014 I made 36 minutes of femslash in 5 podfics. In 2015 I made 11 minutes in 6 podfics. Whiiiiich is actually a kinda misleading comparison, because in 2014 I made 8 more hours of podfic overall. It makes more sense to say that in 2014, 0.16% of my podfic was femslash while in 2015, 0.62% of my podfic was femslash. Sadly, I'm pretty sure I didn't do that math wrong. That's less than one percent. (though actually in 2015 it works out so that my femslash output is just over 1% of my dudeslash output. It's 1.0085%, to be precise). I feel a little bet better when I'm reminded that of the 17 gen podfics in 2014, 13 focused on female or genderqueer characters (it was 10/19 in 2015), but that's still a very very far cry from doing more non-dude-slash, which is a thing I would like to do.

Also, to be honest, I sorta massaged the data? a bit? not really? ish? That nearly 11 hour hobbit podfic is, in my opinion, gen, and in my data it's listed as gen. But on Ao3 it's listed as Thorin/Bilbo. Which... eh... idk. They do kiss, but it's literally in the last line of the nearly 11 hours. And if it's a slow burn, it's so slow as to be entirely unnoticeable. But. I wanted the thorin/bilbo crowd to find it. So it's tagged. And if it's in the dudeslash category, my numbers get very very sad. So it's gen. but with an asterisk of Were I Some Sort of Official Something This Sort Of Thing Would Be Frowned Upon, But I'm Not, So Fuck It.

I need to be making more femslash, is the takeaway here. Bring on the Xena! (NO REALLY. GIMME ALL THE RECS. I"VE BEEN HAVING A HANKERING FOR SOME OLD SKOOL XENA/GABRIELLE)
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I'm bored, and decided to do some quick analysis of the podfic I made in 2015.

This is just the podfic that only features my voice; I took part in several multi-voiced podfics and not!podfics. This post is mostly to reflect on where I chose to spend my resources this year, though, and as I didn't direct any of those podfics, or edit them, and several of them are reflective less of my preferences in fandom than of my preferences in friends (<3), they're omitted from this data.

First, and not super-usefully, here's my podfics by fandom

the blue columns are total minutes of podfic produced per fandom (measured on the left axis), the orange dots are the number of podfics produced per fandom (measured on the right axis). A few things really jump out: I made a lot of very short Avatar: the Last Airbender podfics, and a single but very long, podfic for the Hobbit (Children of the Lonely Mountain). I made several hockey RPF podfics, and together they're barely longer than CotLM (this is counting my WIP podfic of And Never Been Kissed though!). Person of Interest and the Vorkosigan saga get a paired category because I did a pair of podfics, a story and the sequel, that are a PoI/Vor fusion. the Vorkosigan saga then gets another column all on its lonesome for the ITPE podfic I made.

Here's that set of data as a table

fandom breakown ATLA hobbit hockey MCU OuaT PoI/Vor spartacus SPN star trek reboot WC YW sleepy hollow F&F Vor she-ra
total minutes 0.103389 8.037278 8.309639 5.124222 0.098778 2.071361 0.050639 5.031972 0.041444 0.010722 0.011028 0.007583 0.002056 1.001056 0.02425
podfic count 11 1 7 3 1 2 1 1 1 1 3 1 1 1 1

Here's the same set of podfics, this time broken down by category

Aaaaand what this mostly shows is that even though I thought I was trying to podfic more femslash, I... didn't do much. My count wasn't bad! But the sheer amount of dudeslash is 62 times greater than that of femslash. Which. Um. I clearly something I need to work on. Because I want to spend more time with the women of my fandoms, and their relationships with each other, both sexual and non-sexual, and it looks like I haven't been doing that, really. So, that's my thing to work on in 2016.
(Though I haven't run the numbers on previous years, I do think that I made more femslash podfics than last year! They were just very short. Which isn't a bad thing! But it still means that in terms of the raw amount of time that I spent working on those projects, it was way way way less than I spent working on dudeslash projects, or gen projects. Though more than het projects, interestingly)

That said, of the 17 gen podfics, 10 are very clearly focused on a woman, and the 2 mf podfics focus on the woman in the relationship. The others, for the most part, feature at least one woman as a primary character in the fanwork. On the other hand, those are nearly all shortish podfics.

Sidenote: wow, I had no idea I'd podficced that much gen O.O

That second set of data as a table:

category gen mm mf ff
total hours 11.24075 18.44942 0.049194 0.186056
podfic count 17 13 2 5

ETA: this comes to nearly 30 hours of podfic, in case you're wondering (or I forget)
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I don't know that I've ever explained, really, my deep and abiding love for DUM-E, and this seems as good a time as any! 
Well, okay, there's not that much to explain; it's mostly that DUM-E sits at the junction of a number of my buttons. 
Part of it is my love of secondary characters; they have more places to hang headcanons than primary characters, and there are few things I love more than spinning headcanons. Some of them, my favorite kind, are secondary (or only temporarily primary), but have an outsized impact on the story line. Darcy Lewis, Sif, Frigga, Elrond, H.G. Wells, Kasidy Yates, Garak, Mia Toretto, Saxa, Mira, Kiza Apini; there's so little we know about these people's motivations, their backgrounds, the why and wherefor of them, and everyone will have a different idea of what those are. I can read other peoples headcanons, I can spin multiple headcanons; it's one of my favorite things.
So that's part of it. Another part is that the damn robot is deliberately adorable: the beeps and the headtilts and all of it are carefully calculated to elicit our emotions, and, at least on me, it does so very well. Other robots do it too, and not just to me: there's a reason BB-8 and R2-D2 are the mascots of episode vii and the original series respectively. The iron man franchise already had a faceless mascot, so they didn't do the same thing, but iron man 3 sank the robots (MY BABIES!) to give weight to Tony's house being destroyed (it's also why they had to be recovered at the end! It wouldn't have been an entirely happy ending otherwise). 
The other component, if I'm honest, was making the podfic "Run Program: DUM-E". I liked the fic and the character when I started recording, but by the time I was done, I was in love. Making the podfic was an intensely emotional experience: most of it was recorded during my senior year of college, and all the stress and complicated emotions of that got channeled into working on this podfic. Podficcing has always been my happy place, and this one kept me sane. I recorded the silly thing five times before I settled on the right combination of emotion and intonation and code-speak, and it was the first that I made a cover for (though not the first posted, or the one that made me want to learn to make covers because I had such a specific idea for it [that was Team Building Activities, if you're curious, and it turned out pretty much exactly the way I wanted it to]). When I relisten to the podfic now, there are one or two things I'd change - my mic quality is waaaaaay higher now - but overall I'm still very, very happy with it.
And so, my love of DUM-E, which has spilled over onto some of the other robots, provided the basis for a pod_together project, and why it's been my twitter and DW icon for years. I've been considering changing it recently, which is why this whole thing is towards the front of my brain. I don't do as much in the MCU right now, and it feels a bit weird to have a pseud that's not (clearly) connected to any given fandom, and an icon that is. But I can't think of something I'd like better, so that may never happen. So, um. Those are (some of) my feelings on this tiny robot baby, who is closely enough identified with me that people will write me things about it (<3 akamine_chan <3) and steer me towards fanworks featuring it (<333 my TL).
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Day 03

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Children of the Lonely Mountain (the hobbit, gen)
This isn't so much a single podfic as it's twenty-seven side-stories set in and around The Sons of Durin, which I did last year. I'm really proud of these: I did a really good job with the voicing and the pacing, I did good editing (a place I tend to be lazy), I like the covers, and I'm really, really pleased with my music choices for each chapter, which sometimes made me cry, and sometimes made me laugh, but that I think just about always fit very very well.

And Never Been Kissed (ch1-3) (hockey rpf, sid/geno) (ao3 locked)
It feels a little weird to rec this one, because it's not done yet. With any luck, I'll be done with it this year, and I'm halfway through, so I think that's doable. I podfic for any number of reasons, but working on this podfic settles me; I don't usually relisten to my podfics much, but I have relistened to this one, several times. I dunno, I just like it.

The One Where Sid and Darcy Wake Up Hitched (hockey rpf/MCU, sid/geno, jamie/tyler, jamie/tyler/darcy) (not!podfic with lavenderfrost)
AHAHAHA ok this premise is bizarre and things only get weirder from there but I really, really love making not!podfics, and this one was a lot of fun to make.

and the grand facade so soon will burn (star trek reboot, nyota-centric)
my feelings about the star trek reboots are very complicated, but I'm very happy with how this came out.

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Day 2

In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish. If any wishes are granted, we'd love it if you link them to this post.

Hmm. Like a number of people, this is usually a hard one for me, and I'm always kinda tempted to throw up my hands and ask for something ungrantable. But so far I've always overcome that temptation, and I don't want to ruin my streak, so here goes:

1. suggestions/recs for vidding tutorials. I really want to try my hand at making a fanvid, and have had several ideas sketched out for years, but I've gotten really bogged down at the hunting-for-how-to resources stage. Which is a frustrating stage to get stuck at, because I keep thinking it should be easy to overcome, because I'm fairly sure these resources exist. But it hasn't been. So if you know of a how-to-do-the-thing blog, or tutorial, or list of suggestions, or something, I'd be grateful! (In case it's relevant: I'm a PC person running Windows 8)

2. One of my favorite things are fanworks that mess with the conventions of what that medium is supposed to be: fics that are told in text messages, or computer code, or consist of the same sentence over and over and over; fanart that spills over the edge of the frame, or that interacts with its wider environment, or uses unusual materials; podfic that uses different voices for each character, or the same character at different points in their life, or incorporates white noise, or audio feedback, or shifts between the right and left ears. If you've got a rec, for any fandom or pairing, send it my way please :D

3. Ummmmm I'm trying to keep this a low-stress challenge so I'm defaulting on thing 3. Which I'm decently sure I did last year too. Oh well!
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 Day 01

In your own space, talk about why you are doing the Fandom Snowflake Challenge? What drew you to it as a participant? What do you hope to accomplish by doing these challenges? Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.
I'm tired and my eyes hurt and I'm somewhere not my home and I have a headache. But I'm staying with a friend, whom I met through fandom, after getting back from a fannish brunch, where I met a bunch of other fen, and spent hours talking about all sorts of things, and got invited to things that I desperately want to go to even though I really can't, and was too busy to drink enough water, and wore my glasses for too long because I wanted to see everyone. I've added people and tagged people and messaged people and tweeted at people, and I want to keep doing so. And the fandom snowflake challenge is a way of reaching out, and of reaching back, that works for me. So I keep doing it, even when I'm tired and my eyes hurt.
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Dear podficcer!

HI! I'm so excited to hear what you decide to make me! Podfic is one of my favorite forms of fanwork, and podfic fandom is my favorite fandom, and my favorite thing about fandom is interacting with people who love the things that I love. Participating in ITPE is a two-fer: it's a fanwork-form we both love, and we were matched for the fandoms we both love!
The corollary to this, btw, is that, more than anything, I want you to have fun during ITPE. Don't stress out about it. I'll love whatever you make, I promise!

That having been said, if you want some guidance, here are some lists:

A non-exhaustive list of fandoms I adore (in no particular order):
Young Wizards
Jupiter Ascending
Vorkosigan Saga
Mad Max: Fury Road
Due South
Rivers of London
Teen Wolf (focus on the ladies please!)
Marvel Cinematic Universe (read: Avengers, Thor, Iron Man, Captain America, Peggy Carter, Agents of SHIELD)
Avatar: the Last Airbender, Avatar: the Legend of Korra
Welcome to Nightvale
Fast and the Furious
Almost Human

fic elements I adore
focus on minor characters
focus on women
focus on characters of color
focus on genderqueer characters
happy endings! (of any degree of innuendo :D)
funky formats (epistolary, texts, tweets, programming language...)
found families
MANYMANY OTHER THINGS (seriously, I'm pretty easy to please)


chase scenes
no-escape situations (either real or metaphorical – eg backed into a corner, despair, suicidal ideation, variations on "you have nowhere (else) to go", "no one will believe you")
character death (either minor or major)
dub- or non-con
misunderstandings/miscommunication as a plot device
mental health care professionals who suck at their jobs (e.g.: Hannibal, Once Upon a Time, Alphas, etc)
more-than-canonical gore (applies per canon, so what's ok in teen wolf is not in leverage)

Please don't assume that a listed squick is not hard-and-fast because I've podficced something that kinda fits that description. I sometimes find it cathartic to podfic something myself that would give me serious problems otherwise.

If you have any questions, you can ask analise010 or reenajenkins, who have a pretty good handle on my likes and dislikes :D